Oisin Murphy, one of horse racing’s most gifted jockeys, has spent recent years battling not just fierce competitors on the track, but also his own demons. Now 30, Murphy reflects on his tumultuous journey through alcoholism, career setbacks, and the ongoing pursuit of balance and self-control.
For years, Murphy lived in the fast lane—winning races, collecting titles, and chasing the next big victory. Yet behind the glory was a private struggle. Alcohol became both an escape and a trap. The breaking point came in April when a late-night crash—thankfully causing no injuries—led to his arrest and a driving ban. It was a sobering moment, one that forced Murphy to confront the dangerous cycle he had fallen into.
“I thought I was doing well,” he admits, “but I was lying to myself.” Despite past attempts to control his drinking, Murphy found himself repeating old mistakes. Today, he takes his recovery one day at a time, attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings wherever he races and staying open about his struggles. “Every day I have to work at being sober,” he says, acknowledging how quickly old habits can resurface under pressure.
Murphy’s family history is marked by alcoholism—his father and grandfather both fought the same battle. Yet he refuses to let that define him. With the help of therapists and mentors, he has learned that honesty and connection are key. “Counselling only works if you’re completely honest,” he says. “Hide anything, and it’s a waste of time.”
Despite the personal challenges, Murphy’s passion for racing remains undimmed. He continues to thrive on the thrill of victory, though he admits the need to win can be consuming. “There are moments I feel I can walk on water,” he reflects. “But it fades, and you never know when it’ll come back.”
Outside the saddle, Murphy seeks grounding in poetry—especially Sylvia Plath’s Poppies in July, which he relates to for its yearning for escape. He also finds purpose in staying informed about global issues and exploring interests beyond racing.
Now calmer and more self-aware, Murphy knows that maintaining sobriety is his greatest victory yet. “Life will stay free of chaos,” he says with quiet conviction, “as long as I stay sober.”
